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Something in my eyeSo last night.Something in my eye by StarryTC
When I sat alone in my room. I started to think about everything
About my life and how miserable and terrible it makes me feel.
Knowing that I feel so down, and upset all the time when I have no real reason
and there are people out there who do.
In fact, I think this will always bother me
So last night
I sat on my bed and I poured out my guts
confessing every suicidal thought
every bit of self hate and all the stuff I'd never said aloud before
And it felt so good.
But then I looked up,
after spilling out my pain
and realized there was no one there to hear it.
No one there to care.
And its not because I don't have people in my life
friends and family who care.
I don't want to burden them
I don't want them to have to know I'm not the strong one anymore
or that I never was.
My mom walked in the room and asked if I was alright.
I had been crying
Bawling my eyes out as I spoke.
When I saw her concerned look I smiled
Wiped my eyes and simply said.
"Ya..I just got somet